Breaking point
You know that moment when you’re worshiping… that special moment… where it’s like something breaks and nothing else matters besides Christ and His love for you and your love for Him? I think some people know exactly what I am talking about, and maybe some others don’t, but that’s not my place to say.
Its that place right before you lift your hands. The place right before the tears start falling. The place where you finally forget about the people around you, or at least stop caring. The moment where something breaks, and its just you and Jesus. The moment in which you can say “God, despite everything that I may be going through, and despite how there are so many things that I don’t understand, You are GOOD. I trust Your promises. YOU ALONE ARE ALL THAT I NEED, and ALL that I want,” and mean it.
Oh how I wish I could explain it better! It makes me want to yell and jump just thinking about Christ. Its that place where we finally put everything aside except Him. He becomes ultimate.
I’m not talking about the before, and I’m not talking about the after effects of worshiping and surrendering – I’m talking about the moment in time that Christ is elevated, and to whatever degree we are capable of comprehending, He is supreme and the creator of all. That short moment between thinking about looking weird for singing loud with your hands in the air and actually doing that. The short moment that the decision is made, where Christ penetrates our very soul and says “trust Me, I am here. Let me hold you, you are safe and I love you” and we finally let go. Even writing this now at work I am nearly brought to tears thinking of the times that I have heard Him say that to me… He has truly softened my heart, praise Christ for how He loves us.
I love that moment. Experiencing the true love of God.
God, let me put myself aside. Break my heart for You God. May I surrender myself to You, for Your glory. Meet me where I am and help me. May I desire You and only You. Help me not to get caught up in the emotion of it all, but to see the truth and seek the truth. You are King, may You reign supreme over my life. I trust You, though I don’t always understand. I trust the promises of Your word, even though I don’t always understand.
