Unsettled
What a place to be, caught somewhere between decisions and outcomes and life. But not stuck without hope or a light at the end of the tunnel. I begin to look for answers or comfort from things around me, anything to help me settle. My mind races and cannot be quiet despite my constant prayer and attempted focus on Christ.
Like a rock in my shoe that I want to get rid of, but I forgot how to untie my laces. Like the ticking of a clock that I notice only when things are silent, when trying to fall asleep and I can’t ignore it or forget that I hear it. Like a free ride, when your already late. Like good advice, that I just can’t take… I couldn’t resist.
God, I surrender. Because I trust you. Help me find you, and help me find peace. Keep me unsettled until I find what you have for me, and even then, keep me unsettled if it will draw me closer to you. Comfort, security, consistency, steadiness, relaxation, being settled… all of those things are good, but You are better. Can I have more of you?
